One thing we weren't prepared for – and it
sounds really dumb to say this – is that our new life would involve spending every waking moment together. Under each
other’s feet. In each other’s hair. At each other’s throats, sometimes.
Working together, when we were so used to having
separate working lives. Making important decisions together, when we’re used to
acting independently. Managing a renovation project together, when we’re
completely different people who go about things in preposterously different
ways.
Because, when you move to Bulgaria with your
partner, husband, wife, significant other, blow-up companion, you’re together all
the damn time – at least in the early days, when you’re renovating a house,
getting used to your new surroundings, building this new life together.
There’s nowhere to hide the crazier aspects of
your personality, like how writing endless lists gives you a sense of control,
and how you talk to yourself when you think no one’s looking. (Speaking hypothetically,
obviously.) And you can’t get drunk and bitch to your mates when he drives you
up the fucking wall because your mates are 2,000 kilometres away.
You’re reliant on each other in a new, weird
way. Especially if, like us, you don’t throw yourself into an ex-pat community of
Brits. For a long time, you’ve only got each other to talk to – really talk to, I
mean. Even now, my Bulgarian conversation skills are equivalent to a small, not
particularly bright child. If I want to be funny, or mean, or devastatingly
clever, I can only do it in English. And there’s only one person in the vicinity
who’ll understand me.
There’s not much you can do about all this,
other than embrace the odd raging argument, get silly drunk together at regular
intervals, and be as kind to each other as you can muster. It gets easier when
you’re no longer living in a building site, and you’ve settled into a normal
daily routine. And before you know it, the idea that you used to go off to
separate places for nine hours (or more) each day is completely alien. It’s
weird to think there was a time when we didn’t
cook lunch together every day while listening to PopMaster.
And then, every so often, your partner will bugger
off back to England to see their family and it’ll be like a delicious holiday
for both of you!
Rob’s back home with his folks right now, and
while I obviously miss him (not just because he makes the best coffee and deals
with whatever creatures the cats drag in), I’m also enjoying having sole command
of the TV (hello, Twilight),
cultivating some impressive body hair, and talking to myself all day long. What?
No you’re a big fat square who doesn’t
know how to have fun.
I'm also enjoying sending him cute cat updates to tug at his heart strings. There's nothing a grown-ass man misses more than his cats, am I right? |